Hi. It’s been a while since I’ve been really active on this platform. Hoping to change that now. I felt like I was on a one way downward spiral around the time that I disappeared from this place. Needed to tell someone that might understand what is happening in my life and I felt like this would be a good return post around here, so I hope this is the appropriate community for it. Feels appropriate.
Both little things and bigger things feel like they’re starting to finally go my way. 90% thanks to finally asking for help from my older sisters, who I am forever indebted to for always being the dumpster fire that needs putting out. Hopefully I’m getting onto a path now of no longer help or even starting to be able to reciprocate.
On the little things side, I’ve got a nice new phone with a non-broken screen and can actually see what I’m doing and at least have a semblance of an online social life again; I’m starting to look more and more like me, my hair is getting nice and long now and looking fucking fantastic and doing most of the heavy lifting in making me like what I see in the mirror, and I’m finally getting my nose pierced again in the near future! I’ve been listening to a lot of music again and going down rabbit holes and discovering new things thanks to a thread I made here a while back on my other account; I’ve started dabbling in programming again and learning to make pixel art.
On the big things side, my fucked up and embarrassing teeth situation is mostly sorted out (actually this is doing the heavy lifting for my positivity levels); and I am going to be doing the TEFL (Teaching English as a Foreign Language) course.
Trying not to count my chickens before they hatch but hopefully by this time next year, I’ll have a decent paying WFH gig without a suit or a haircut or a manager breathing down my neck. And I’ll be really making up for lost time and taking my power back. And filling the hole with nice things like clothes and jewelry and tattoos and books, and things to put on my walls.
For anyone that read this far, thanks for reading my self centred rant. I’ve missed this place and missed a few of you (I’m sure you know who you are 💜). I’m going to try and not be a stranger around here from now.
Hey man sometimes we just need to shout to the world about something good! I feel like my life is at a turning point as well (altho it’s in less of an optimistic way and more of a dramatic change sort of way). Wishing you the best for your future. :)
Thanks Dingus! Lol I love the username.
Honestly I’m trying not to be too optimistic and count on plans that might change or fall through because you never know. But also need to be far away from that hopeless feeling now, I’m done with it.
I hope that your dramatic changes are at least not negative. Maybe sometimes flipping the board and starting over can be good too.