It’s an awful thing but also amusing in its own way. When I used to go out with my ex I always had to memorize what he was wearing. One time we were at the grocery store and I forgot what shirt he was dressed in. I went off to get something from another aisle and when I came back he was gone. Eventually he physically grabbed me while I was walking past and found it very funny to tell me that he been laughing while watching me walk right past him about 5 times in a growing panic because I couldn’t find him.

Thanks, it’s good to be heard. I am medicated, but that only gets me from completely nonfunctional to nail biting my way through life. Unfortunately I’m not able to use caffeine either, low amounts are ok, but anything more than a cup of tea leaves me extremely depressed, tired, and physically ill. After a lot of research (actually reading academic papers, not YouTube, lol) I’ve just started cautiously experimenting with micro dosing and it could very well be the placebo effect, but it seems to be working a little better than my meds. Of course it’s illegal as all hell where I am and if I get caught I can kiss my job goodbye forever.

Yes. I didn’t get diagnosed with ADHD until I was in my 30s. By then I had already spent my entire life hating myself for being an utter failure because I couldn’t figure out why just having a simple existence felt like trying to climb Mount fucking Everest every goddamn day and why my brain always feels like scrambled eggs. I’ve been passively suicidal most of my life because even as a kid the adults in my life openly compared me to my peers and found me sorely lacking, and as an adult I mourn the life I want and can’t seem to achieve. I feel like my entire existence has been me throwing myself at the bars of a giant cage labelled ADHD and I can’t get myself out or find the key and people come stand outside the door and watch me and say things like “everyone has focus issues” and “you just need to try harder” and my personal fucking favorite “nothing in your brain is impossible to fix if you’re willing to put in the effort, you just are unwilling to change”.

My ADHD has taken everything from me. I have no friends, not even online, I’ve dropped out of school multiple times, I struggle at work, I struggle to emotionally regulate, I’ve only ever had two relationships and I was dumped by text from the person I was married to and ghosted from the other.

I actually have an okay paying job now, but I fully expect I will die alone and broke because the chances of me ever being able to keep a career that pays well enough to stay ahead in this economy are slim to none. I have no idea how to make or keep friends, and I can’t bear the thought of getting attached to someone else only to get ghosted again.

I’d do anything to not have ADHD. Sure I’ll laugh and make ADHD jokes with everyone else, but my life would be so different if my brain would fucking work (or if I would have been diagnosed sooner and learned coping mechanisms and self love sooner).

I’m not a NYC resident, so I can’t vote in their election, but I wouldn’t vote for Cuomo if I was!

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That’s incredibly unfair. Everyone says we don’t, but I just checked my timesheet and it’s listed as a 13 hour shift (instead of 12) with a notation marking it as happening during a time shift.

They just announced that they’re raising water and sewage in my area by 300% by the end of the year. No reason given, just because they can. It should be fucking illegal. They’re also planning on putting in a few data centers, which are currently being hotly contested, because they’re supposed to make everyone’s electric bill go up about 300% as well. I’m terrified as to how I’m going to afford my electric bill. Water and sewage is included in my rent, I can’t wait to see how much that increases when my lease is up this winter and I also have no idea how I’ll afford it, but I also don’t know if I could find anywhere to move that would be cheaper and not give me a commute that negates any savings.

I work night shift. I got to watch the time on my phone reset and then relive the hour again while stuck on shift.

I live in the suburbs. There’s dozens of options to go out to dinner within a 20 minute drive of me.

I haven’t been out to dinner in years. Can’t afford it. Rent’s too high.

I hate milk so much. The taste, the texture. Just the thought of drinking a glass of milk again makes me want to projectile vomit. I had to drink a glass of milk for dinner every night as a kid. I wasn’t allowed to leave the table until it was gone. Sometimes I’d sit there for an hour just trying to force myself to drink it. My parents were like, just drink the milk, it’s not so bad, get it over with, but it felt like being tortured every night. I was violently ill afterwards almost every time.

Turns out I’m both lactose intolerant and neurodivergent. Yes I was being a little drama queen, but I at least had reasons :)

This. I use FOSS apps for as much as possible, have all my privacy settings carefully curated, don’t use Gmail or other Google apps for anything that matters, and have everything related to AI, social media apps, or services I don’t use disabled in the system apps, plus I use Mullvad’s DNS server to block ads and social media traffic from my phone itself, not just browsers. I work a lot of hours and don’t get much time to just chill. While I’m more tech savvy than the average person I’m far less tech savvy than the average Lemmy user. I don’t want to spend what little free time I have trying to install a different OS on my phone hoping I don’t brick it, or figuring out if I can get things to work with my phone carrier, my work apps, or my banking apps, and the convenience of having those apps outweighs the cons.

Self hatred because if you were just better it wouldn’t take 6 hours to clean a one bedroom apartment that you live in alone and are never even home in and if you didn’t suck so much it wouldn’t ever get dirty and need cleaned beyond a quick vacuum in the first place.