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The biggest thing I feel is rage and betrayal.
There are people in my immediate family who voted for those who think my disabled pansexual leftist ass should be literally murdered by the Gestapo.
That’s the betrayal.
The rage is that I’ve seen this collapse coming since I was a kid in the mid 90s. I was absolutely ready for this in my 20s. Now, I’m 40, disabled and can’t even stand white light for long or any loud sound along with a host of other issues.
And none of them listen despite telling me how smart I am my whole life. I take one baby step to show them a flaw in what they’re saying and suddenly I’m a naive idiot to them.
Rage, rage against the dying of the light.
The last political talk I had with my 70+ year old mother ended with her screaming at me and crying while she called me a know it all for actually having thought through my convictions and having data to back it up.
I called her out for holding a brick in her hand that has access to all of human knowledge and saying all she did was look at fucking Facebook.
Then I get told I don’t know what I’m talking about despite knowing very well what I’m talking about.
These people are demented