I’ll keep this in mind next time I get pulled over. Who knows could work with the right cop.

I’d usually leave and not bother waking them up.

Usually we were all hung over or stayed awake all night anyways and just rolled into some breakfast joint looking like homeless tweakers.

Personally I come from a long line of hairy fuckers. Clean shaven is not an option because it literally grows back in less than a day. Plus I like the beard had it for decades.

As hairy as my face is, I’m thankful I didn’t get the hairy back gene. My legs, chest and ass though, I’m kind of like a satyr without hooves.

“… it’s time to go to distant lands…”

Your skinwalker?

Oh it’s not easy, I keep stopping and forcing myself to restart. But it’s been invaluable, because when I look back I realized how shitty my memory is. Half of the things I put in there I wouldn’t remember if I didn’t write them down.

I’ve been using an app called eMoods if it helps.

Thanks it helps.

I feel like this the blind leading the blind. But I settled on trying to push for a psych evaluation instead of jumping into sessions. I’ve also been journaling my mental state and sleep daily, so I can be prepared this time. Roughest thing I did was physically writing out my past trauma/history, but figured I’d have that on hand too so I had a checklist of things I can remember to talk about. Maybe disconnect it when I talk about it.

Figure with all that at least I can get a baseline opinion out of it and if I don’t like the person this time I have some actionable items I can plug in for people that specialize in what might crop up.

My issues though are not clear so I’m just struggling to find the right path. I hope you keep at it, just as much as I do.

All I can think is… You’re already 90% nude, so why bother with shoes on a beach? 🤔

Thanks, I have gone there and it was helpful.

I made the mistake the first time by just taking my family doctor’s opinion because I’m newer to the area and have no idea where to start. He sent me to the group who had asshole #1 and I found out afterwards that guy had a lot negative reviews for the same issues I had. The group was ok, but he was the worst and I got placed with him because everyone else was full. I was ignorant and was just desperate to get “somewhere”. Boy was that a mistake.

Bigger problem I’m finding is there is a very small list for my area. Once I popped in the filter for non-secular it gets barren. I live in a very religious area, I’m not anti-religion. But I am an atheist that doesn’t want to go to someone who tells me to confide in God to heal myself. Been to one of those before, just doesn’t work.

Essentially I have narrowed it down to two.

Thanks, this really fucked with me when I tried to scroll past.

Like when you are backing up your car and the car next to you starts going forward.

Just young spice enthusiasts.

He killed Bowser and rest of the koopas are taking revenge.

Completely vulnerable moment

As a person long overdue to get some mental help. I’ve been really motivated to get myself better since early last year. Had some events happen where I was like, yeah I need to handle my shit.

I’ll say the process so far is my biggest hurdle. Took ages to get a referral, once I got the referral took ages to get seen. When I finally was seen it was the wrong fit. Now I’m waiting until next week to start again and push for different referrals, all so my insurance covers some of it (maybe).

Meanwhile I’m doing the best I can, but certainly think about just throwing in the towel and drowning myself in drugs again. Which worked a long time until it really really didn’t work. But the thought of finally getting my foot in the door to spend months and thousands trying to even find a root cause just feels utterly pointless. Also now raw dogging life without anything to dull it but some doctor prescribed sleeping pills is challenging to say the least.

Still the worst part is explaining the laundry list of my past trauma to strangers just to get them up to speed. Hopefully to help pinpoint where I need to focus my efforts on getting better. Last fellow just had to say “well you made it this far and seem to be doing better than most of my patients”. Essentially call me back when you have a full blown meltdown, because I only deal with extremes. That shit was deflating, sorry for being proactive and trying to get help before I get committed somewhere?

I’ve spent a really long time keeping my issues in check, I’ve become very good at what to say or not say that is bouncing around my skull. Now that I can’t do it anymore it seems to throw a lot of people for a loop.

Anyhow feels like some sort of shitty race to see if my mind breaks first or I get help before that happens. Than when I do get to the right step 1 there will be this slow trial and error I need to go through. Which I completely understand is necessary, but it’s not giving me much hope.

That person on fire is probably like that because the healthcare system just kept dosing it with gasoline before they stepped foot in the office.

I’m mostly disappointed how castrated the US system is to react at all. This is like a dead body finally bursting and the local wildlife just accelerating decay.

A lot of people working within the system are going to have to make a choice if they are loyal to the people or status quo. Will they continue to overlook corruption to save themselves?

I’m afraid this has already been answered because all that lead up to this moment was paved with corruption and greed that favored elites and not the common people. Meanwhile the common people of the US are ok with ignoring this theft or just simply fighting with each other. Which was the plan all along. Keep everyone distracted well the rich and powerful gut the nation.

Um yeah same… I certainly wasn’t thinking “wow what a juicy minion ass”. That would be weird right?

You haven’t run into them during nesting season. A group outside where I worked decided to nest in the bushes outside one of the entrances and they would attack anyone who came near. They’d just stand outside the glass and posture to attack if you thought about touching the door.

God help you if you decided to use that exit. We had to eventually just give up and put up a sign until they moved on.

So that scene where he pulls off half his mask to kiss Mary Jane could be different in this universe.