I would highly recommend the Bobiverse series. A fairly grounded sci-fi series that explores the idea of von numan probes (uploading people’s consciousnesses into machines that travel between stars and can self replicate).
The series is quite clean, but still explores deep and more mature topics such as: if you clone an AI consciousness, is it still you?
I would say to go find some people. Go find a local gaming store, and look for something like a DnD or tournament group to join. Maybe look for some other sort of group: camping, biking, robotics, whatever.
Get to know some people, make some friends. Once you get to know people and get close to them, then you can open up about your struggles. Good friends will want to support you and help you out.
Find some people and then you won’t have to struggle alone. Plus, all the fun things you can do with them will be a good distraction from your addictions, and maybe, over time, your addictions will lessen.